feeling down

I'm having kind-of a down day. Maybe blogging about it will make me feel better :-)

School hasn't been the best with oldest son again this week. I just wish he would have some initiative! Everyone says it's an "age thing" and it will pass. I certainly hope so, because I have 3 more to go through the same thing! UGGH! I need patience and understanding.

I am frustrated with buying food for this household of mine! Hundreds of dollars a month and there's still nothing to eat! We are trying to eat healthier and boy, is it expensive! It's so much easier to buy the pre-packaged foods for lunches, isn't it?

NOTE: I just signed up at Saving Dinner for some of their menus. I like how they have the shopping lists and nutritional information included. Signed up for a 3-month subscription. Let's see how it goes.

I sometimes feel "useless" in my home, even though I know I am always busy with something -- cleaning, cooking, shopping, teaching -- you get the idea. I think it's not so much feeling useless, but feeling unappreciated. I don't see what good I am doing in all the chores I do because it just gets dirty again. Food gets eaten. Dishes get messed again. Anyway, that's the rut I am in today.

Then I get stuck in the school thing again -- wonder if I am benefiting my kids by homeschooling them .... wonder if they are learning anything .... wonder if they will choose a good career when they get older ..... wonder if they'll be happy......

Gotta change my attitude, I guess. I should go get some lunch seeing how it is almost 3 pm and I haven't eaten yet.